Prayer of a great physician...

Thanks a lot to Prof M for teaching us this prayer..Moses Maimonides Prayer had gave me a great motivation when i faced difficulty in my daily life as medical student...

Daily prayer of a great physician

-may Allah grant me strength to be a beneficial human being and His good servant to look after the mankind


Almighty God, Thou has created the human body with infinite wisdom.

Ten thousand times ten thousand organs hast Thou combined in it that act unceasingly and harmoniously to preserve the whole in all its beauty the body which is the envelope of the immortal soul.

They are ever acting in perfect order, agreement and accord.

Yet, when the frailty of matter or the unbridling of passions deranges this order or interrupts this accord, then forces clash and the body crumbles into the primal dust from which it came.

Thou sendest to man diseases as beneficent messengers to foretell approaching danger and to urge him to avert it.

Thou has blest Thine earth, Thy rivers and Thy mountains with healing substances; they enable Thy creatures to alleviate their sufferings and to heal their illnesses.

Thou hast endowed man with the wisdom to relieve the suffering of his brother, to recognize his disorders, to extract the healing substances, to discover their powers and to prepare and to apply them to suit every ill.

In Thine Eternal Providence Thou hast chosen me to watch over the life and health of Thy creatures.

I am now about to apply myself to the duties of my profession.

Support me, Almighty God, in these great labors that they may benefit mankind, for without Thy help not even the least thing will succeed.

Inspire me with love for my art and for Thy creatures.

Do not allow thirst for profit, ambition for renown and admiration, to interfere with my profession, for these are the enemies of truth and of love for mankind and they can lead astray in the great task of attending to the welfare of Thy creatures.

Preserve the strength of my body and of my soul that they ever be ready to cheerfully help and support rich and poor, good and bad, enemy as well as friend. In the sufferer let me see only the human being.

Illumine my mind that it recognize what presents itself and that it may comprehend what is absent or hidden.

Let it not fail to see what is visible, but do not permit it to arrogate to itself the power to see what cannot be seen, for delicate and indefinite are the bounds of the great art of caring for the lives and health of Thy creatures.

Let me never be absent-minded.

May no strange thoughts divert my attention at the bedside of the sick, or disturb my mind in its silent labors, for great and sacred are the thoughtful deliberations required to preserve the lives and health of Thy creatures.

Grant that my patients have confidence in me and my art and follow my directions and my counsel.

Remove from their midst all charlatans and the whole host of officious relatives and know-all nurses, cruel people who arrogantly frustrate the wisest purposes of our art and often lead Thy creatures to their death.

Should those who are wiser than I wish to improve and instruct me, let my soul gratefully follow their guidance; for vast is the extent of our art.

Should conceited fools, however, censure me, then let love for my profession steel me against them, so that I remain steadfast without regard for age, for reputation, or for honor, because surrender would bring to Thy creatures sickness and death.

Imbue my soul with gentleness and calmness when older colleagues, proud of their age, wish to displace me or to scorn me or disdainfully to teach me.

May even this be of advantage to me, for they know many things of which I am ignorant, but let not their arrogance give me pain.

For they are old and old age is not master of the passions.

I also hope to attain old age upon this earth, before Thee, Almighty God!

Let me be contented in everything except in the great science of my profession.

Never allow the thought to arise in me that I have attained to sufficient knowledge, but vouchsafe to me the strength, the leisure and the ambition ever to extend my knowledge.

For art is great, but the mind of man is ever expanding.

Almighty God! Thou hast chosen me in Thy mercy to watch over the life and death of Thy creatures.

I now apply myself to my profession.

Support me in this great task so that it may benefit mankind, for without Thy help not even the least thing will succeed.

Week 3 Pediatric Posting..

Week 3 Pediatric Posting..

Academic Account

Alhamdulillah, I am already in third week of pediatric posting. I am now clear with the system after Prof A explain it during CBC. Now only I can appreciate about my life in Serdang.

Hmm..I felt very lucky when Dr N asks me to present about Leptospirosis. I volunteer to present about it during the grand ward round. Dr N asked me about the history of Leptospirosis itself after the presentation. I could not remember much. Then she asked us about the important of history so that we have insight. She said that she can still remember her difficulty during her pre clinical year even though she was the Head of Department of Pediatric now. It teaches me to appreciate history.

I followed clinic with Dr. K. She asked me to plot growth chart and also ask me to perform respiratory examination on patient. I also had the opportunity to use otoscope. I also had opportunity to use scope to look at a patient that had allergic rhinitis.

It is great week.

S – I am clear
W- Don’t know much about history
O- Learn about history
T – Don’t have insight

Non Academic Account

Alhamdulillah, I got the car. My father already sent it. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. I felt very grateful to have the car. I still remember when I had on call, I don’t have a car to go home. The taxi asked RM50 to go home. Then I had to call my friend that was sleeping to take me. It makes me felt so terrible. I cried that night.

Allah had answered my prayer. I can go to hospital often. I can use the car for dakwah. Alhamdulillah.

I hope that I can always remember the things that had been told by Assyahid Hassan Al Banna. When once asked by a journalist to introduce himself, Hasan Al ¬Banna said: "I am a traveler seeking the truth, a human searching for the meaning of humani¬ty and a citizen seeking dignity, freedom, stability and welfare under the shade of Islam. I am a free man who is aware of the purpose of his existence and who pro¬claims: "Truly, my prayer and my sacrifice, my living and my dying are all for Allah, the Lord of the worlds; no partner has He. This, am I commanded and I am of those who submit to His Will:' This is who I am. Who are you?"

S- Now I already had the car
W – Don’t use the car for goodness
O- I can use the car for dakwah and study
T – Becoming worse after had the car

Pledge

O Allah! You are my Lord, there is no god but You. You created me and I am your slave, I uphold your pledge and evil that I have committed. I acknowledge your blessing upon me and Iacknowledge my sin. So forgive me, for none can forgive can forgive sins except you.

Week 2 Pediatric Posting..

Week 2 Pediatric Posting

Academic Account

Alhamdulillah, I am now in second week of pediatric posting. I am still blurred about the system. I am blurred on writing the case write up. I am blurred with the system itself. I found myself was in a difficult situation.

I tried to be positive each time I am scolded. There were too many things that I don’t even know. Sometimes it was really difficult to ask to anyone here. But there were still few people that are truly helpful.

I think that there were too many things to learn. During our pre clinical year, we are assessed during OSCE according to the question that we had asked. But now we need to present the case. Too many things need to be asked even about fever. I really hope that there were lecturers that can teach us all that and listened to our presentation so that we know about our mistakes.

I had opportunity to see a bronchiectasis patient that had a kyphoscoliosis this week. I had also seen a Prader Willi syndrome patient. There are many more things to read during weekend.

S – Still following ward round and ready to be scolded
w- Cannot be independent
o- Improving and revising during weekend
t – Being so blurred with pediatric

Non Academic Account

There were not so much things to do during the weekend except doing revision. But I had the opportunity to meet the juniors in the college.

This week also we will have usrah back. Usrah is something that I missed for a long time. It is really sad when the study cycle doen’t take place for two weeks. I felt my soul was really emptied. I like bioethics presented by Prof M. It gives back motivation when I learned about Moses Maimonides prayer.

I hope the usrah will fill back my soul.

S- usrah had been a great motivation
w- Feel empty
o- Tried to listen on the lectures on the internet
t – Not motivated

Pledge
I hope that I can be motivated for the coming week.

Week 1 Pediatric Posting...

Week 1 Pediatric Posting

I had to write log book in my college every week. This was the writing that I wrote in my log book…

Academic Account

Alhamdulillah, I already started third year. It is like a dream for me as I am not so good like others. I am blurred with the system at first as I don’t really know the things that I should do. I learned and remember more by following ward round. I am not so good in memorizing but when I look at the sign, I remember better. For example, I remember about broncholitis obliterans, Harrison’s sulcus, pectus carinatum, intercostals recession when I look at the sign.

I learned a lot of things. Iman and I went to the hospital at night. I felt that the doctor there was more helpful during night. They are more relaxed at that time and ready to teach something. But they don’t really had time if we met them at the morning as they’re terribly busy to prepare for the ward round.

This week, I manage to see venopuncture. I felt sad for the baby. I don’t felt that I want to become pediatrician as I am afraid to handle tiny babies. I also experienced to follow my patient to take x ray. For the first time in life, I saw the procedure on taking babies’ x ray.

Hmm…Sometimes I felt that I am bringing my feeling while doing my work. I felt like I want to cry when I met one child that gone to die soon as she had multiple complex CHD. I am attaching to that child. I love to play with her. I felt motivated to see her mom. I also felt that a doctor should not be arrogance. Doctor doesn’t have any power. Even though they seem to know everything, they just have their limitation. Allah with His name AlQahhar can do anything.

This week also, I lost my punch card. I need to do a police report and made a new card. I just use it for one day and it lost. Allah knows best. The good thing that I learned through this experience was to give salam to anyone that you met. I met one woman in the lift and I gave her salam. Then only I knew that she works at administration unit. When I met her again, she helps me a lot. Salam is something easy to do and it makes my life easier.

S – I have good stamina
W - I am still confuse regarding clinical year
O – Met the doctor and present in front of them
T – Shyness

Non Academic Account

I went fo sunathon in Kampung Pa Ba in Terengganu. We don’t go for sunathon in Kelantan. I don’t know the exact feeling. I felt stressed as the bus plan to go back to KL at 10 pm Saturday but then they said that the bus was break down and we need to go back to KL on Sunday morning. We had already paid RM100 for the ticket and need to face all these things.

I already knew that everything that happens in my life has already being planned by Allah and that must be the best. But sometimes, it is terribly hard to face everything with open heart.

Another thing that makes be little bit sad is that we just need to handle pre and post procedure only. We can’t handle the circumcision. The total number of the children is about 30. The MA there is about 25. The student from Rusia, UK, and Mesir is about 60. We are just coming from far away to handle pre and post procedure. I do think that they can handle it. It is just so easy.

But then I reflect back, should I have become sad for that thing? I should be humble. I am just His servant. It might be not so worth it to go but it might be the test that Allah gave me to see my humbleness. I hope that I can wash back my heart that was so dirty.

I had opportunity to teach the children there about Islam. I teach them simple nasyid like ‘Anak Nabi’. Sometimes it is really sad to see that they don’t even know about Rasulullah SAW. Allah wants to teach me regarding the reality of the ummah. I hope that I can do something for the ummah in the future.

S - I just realize that I can get close toward children
W- Difficult to accept everything with open heart
O – Go to any program and try to seek the hikmah
T – Easily stress

Pledge
I hope that I can finish all the works that I plan.