Week 8 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

I will be having exam this week. I got Dr Rafizi as my examiner. During my pre-clinical years, I am always afraid about facing failure. But Allah teaches me about Muqaddimah Fi Zilalil Quran from one of my murabbi. Now I am not afraid about failure anymore. I study because of Allah and not because of exam. I am not afraid and I am not stress anymore. I face my life with motivation. If Allah wants goodness for someone, He will open up the person heart to understand the deen. Alhamdulillah..

S – Not afraid about failure
W - Nervousness
O – Failure makes you a better person
T – Busy in my daily life and forgot about deen

Week 7 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

My mom always said to me that, “If you can see what happens in the future, then you will see that Allah has planned a beautiful thing for you today”. I always believe in that. It was so sad when I look at one houseman when she doesn’t even know about IVDU or SI. She doesn’t know about obstructive jaundice. I felt so pity for her. Long time ago, I really want to go to Mesir. I really want to pursue my Arabic studies. But my father doesn’t allow me to go. It is not about my parent’s plan, but it is definitely Allah’s plan. Allah put me in CUCMS. Alhamdulillah. I felt so relieved that I have been trained here. I am not an excellence student. I just cannot imagine if I was that houseman. Definitely I will be stress. Masya Allah, Allah has put me in the best place ever. Dr Shuhaila teaches us every Saturday from 8 am until 2 pm. Dr Rafizi will organize a class even at night. Can I find any better place than this?

I am an auditory learner. Extensive teaching day and night is better for me. Repetition is always good for me. I love internal medicine because the class is so intensive and interesting.

S – Being in CUCMS
W – Auditory learner – depend on teaching
O – More classes
T – Hate to read medical book

Non Academic Account

Next week is an examination week. I am sick. I had nausea, vomiting and diarrhea.

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe", and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false. (29:2-3)

Allah used the word ‘laqad’ in the verse. It shows definitely that Allah will test someone.

When will the times come and I said to Allah – Ya Allah, test me again and again. I will show you that I will succeed in the test…

S – Being tested
W – Fail in the test
O – Ask Allah for strength
T – fail in seeking mardhatillah

Week 6 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

I am afraid about my clinical skill. I am improving in term of knowledge but I am still lack in physical examination.

I felt so bored this week. I know it is because of my heart (qalbun). Qalbun comes from Arabic words taqallub. Taqallub means keep on changing. I know I was little bit down now. I really need a booster. I think that there should be a continuation of study circle even in Hospital Putrajaya.

S – My brain
W - Laziness
O - Practicing on patient
T – Not balance

Non Academic Account

I met one patient. She had acute myocardial infarct. Masya Allah, she was very nice. She gives me motivation. She allowed me to examine her and she told me about her life. She cried when she gives me advice. And of course, I cried too. There are so many people that come to see her. She reminds me about someone that I love. The person died after solat and after serving his husband.

I am thinking more about death by being in the ward.

S – Meet a good people
W – afraid about death
O – Do better thing
T – Afraid…

Week 5 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

We come back to Putrajaya back. In the first week, Prof Latif seems to be very strict. I know that it was for our goodness.

Here there are another 2 more lecturers. They are Dr Shuhaila and Dr Rafizi. They will do class for us anytime. They seem to be so excited to seek for Mardhatillah. They do a good deed like they have been seeing Jannah. Masya Allah. They are so kind. I love to listen about their experience.

S – Great lecturer
W - Laziness
O – Goes for class and seek knowledge
T – Not motivated

Non Academic Account

I missed my home terribly. Huhu.. I really need to meet my parent and my sibling so that I become motivated.

Afeera, please remember…Ibnu Abas used to sleep in front of the doors of other companions because he want to write their wisdoms…

At Tabari asked the letter to write the “do’a and the hadist” from a scholar that visited him while he was sick even if he was nearly to death….

I should be more motivated to study afterall..

S – Story about the scholars
W – Not motivated
O – Try to find something new
T - Not finishing my work

Week 4 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

This will be the last week in Terendak. I will missed the teaching here. I like Dr Azmi and Dr Rosman class as well. I enjoyed the ward round here where medical student like us involved in it as well.

I have been cheated by my patient. Maybe it is because my face looks like a Parkinson patient that has the stupor face. I remember what my father said, “Whenever you met people, it is Allah’s way so that you will be learn more about ‘insan’”.

S – Excellent ward round
W – Stupor face
O – Be rational
T – Being fooled

Non Academic Account

There is a story in Islam about one guy. He always prayed on times in the mosque. People said good things about home. One day he came late. At that time he wanted to go back so that people will not said bad thing about him. He realized one thing at that moment. He has been doing things not for Allah but for the sake of human. He realized his mistakes at that time.

I always remembered this story. Many things had happen in my life that made me reflecting about my intention.

S - Allah reminds me about my mistake
W – Doing something for the sake of others
O – Renew my intention
T - Syaitan

Week 3 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

I enjoyed Prof Rashid class. Alhamdulillah he was nice and I keep on trying in his class. It is good when someone gave the chance to us to try even though the answer is wrong. I think that I became more confident in his class. I still remembered about Professional Exam where I just blurred in his station. Alhamdulillah, internal medicine has been great.

Sometimes I am just wondering. What is the reason that Allah makes all my lecturers such a genius person?

I know that I have done a lot of mistakes to my lecturers. The scholar in long time ago will open their book quietly so that they don’t disturb their teachers. Me? Huhu..


S – Have a great lecturer
W – the mistakes that I have done to my lecturer
O – ask for forgiveness
T - I’m afraid if I don’t have blessing

Non Academic Account

I met my sisters in Islam in Malacca Matriculation College. I felt so touched to look at them. They have a spirit to bring back Islam. Ukhwah was something that can’t be described in words.

Eventhough I had left matric for a long time, the seed that we planted shows the result. Masya Allah, I cried.

I don’t have motivation to study if I am not with islam. Ukhwah, dakwah and tarbiah is the biggest motivation in my life.

S - Ukhwah
W - slow in dakwah
O – Usrah
T – Istiqamah – how long?

Week 2 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

I love to be in Terendak even though I need to pay RM440 for the rent of the month. It is the place where my life started. It is the place where I change from wanted to become a writer and chose medicine. It is the place where I met Prof Latif and he ‘brainwash’ me on medicine. I still remember one thing that has been told by my naqibah about Prof Latiff. “There are only two types of person that you can be jealous to. The first one is the one that have the knowledge and he teaches others. The second one is the one that have wealth and he used it for Islam. You can see both of the qualities in Prof Latiff”. I myself believes that he was such a genius person but still down to the earth. If one day he left this world, it will be such a great lost for the ummah. I should be more motivated to study after all.


S – Great lecturer
W – Forgetful
O – Repetition, always do a revision
T - Focus on medicine and losing other capabilities

Non Academic Account

Malacca is the place that changes my life totally. I know about tarbiah here. Even though my family understands Islam, but I am rebelling before. I hate all the books in my fathers rack. I love to read on Ahadiat Akashah and all the nonsense novel before. I hate each time my father said about usrah or any religious program. I am not obedient to my parent before. Certain people thought that I am not talking to guys because of Islam. But it is not true. I have a ‘mental’ problem long times ago where I don’t even shake my father’s hand.

This is the place where I change totally. This is the place where I started to know the meaning of ukhwah. I hate making friends before. But this is the place where I started to smile. This is the place where I understand about Islam. This is the place where I started to appreciate my parent. I understand a lot of things here. That’s why this place has such a great place in my heart. Islam has one quality that is “inqilabiyyah’. Islam will change someone. I believe in that.

S - Islam
W - My sin
O - Repentance
T – Keep doing the same mistake

Week 1 Internal Medicine

Academic Account

I felt so relieved that Public Health posting already end. It was really the most stressful posting. I felt that my mind and physical was tortured during that posting. I felt that I was in the peak of my life at that time. It was such a big relief that public health posting already ended.

I felt excited to study in Internal Medicine. I know it was the gist among all the posting. I enjoyed studying in this posting. I am happy being in hospital and meet patient. I hate my life in public health posting when I need to sit in front of computer almost all the time to finish my report. I want to meet people and learn more about their disease and life.

Sometimes I felt that I can’t become a doctor. I easily cried. I cried in front of one patient this week. The patient has myelofibrosis.

S - Love to meet people
W - Easily cried
O – Tried to become strong
T – Being unethical doctor

Non Academic Account

I am just recovering from one test in my life. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me such a great family that understand and help me in my life. Allah teaches me a lot of thing from what have already happen.

Allah knows what is best for me. So why should I complain? I always want the sunshine, but he knows there must be rain. I always want laughter, but I know that my heart will then loose its tenderness if I never shed a tear. Allah tests me often with suffering and with sorrow. He tests me not to punish myself, but to help me meet tomorrow.

Growing trees are strengthened, if they can withstand the storm. And the sharpness of the chisel gave marble of its grace and form.

Allah tests me often. And for every pain He gives me is followed by rich grain, provided if I am patient. So whenever I feel that everything is going wrong, it is Allah’s way to make my spirits strong.

I should remember one thing...

“On no soul do we place a burden greater than it can bear”... (23:56)

S – Great family
W – Keep on complaining
O – Face another test with an open heart
T – Failed in the next test